urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas Cody Micheal Payne Cody Micheal Payne 2006-07-05T11:29:43Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:25901 2006-07-05T11:29:43Z 2006-07-05T11:29:43Z im about ready to leave.<br />this city is seriously just killing me.<br />everything about it.<br />i miss the way things were a month ago. <br />i miss the way things were a year ago even more.<br />i should be going home sometime soon.<br />i just hope that when i leave, i'll still be with you.<br /><br />i guess there will be a reunion of AATR? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:25815 2006-06-14T08:04:00Z 2006-06-14T08:04:00Z im like basicly living on my own right now. times are awesome. i figured out what i want to be when i grow up, which is a teacher. how cool would that be? for all of you that dont know, im going out with heather green now, and i love her alot. shes so cute. and fun and yeah. <br /><br />untill next time... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:25539 2006-04-30T16:44:47Z 2006-04-30T16:44:47Z wow i cant even remember the last time i have updated this thing. so much has gone on! whatev, im going on tour this summer, buy tshirts from my band so we can tour happily =)<br /><br />ps. i have a huge crush on someone =) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:24705 2005-12-24T06:16:27Z 2005-12-24T06:16:27Z im really frustrated! writing the music for the upcoming demo is hard. ive never really been the one to write the lyrics, but now that im a frontman i need to put forth my singing and my words. its soo hard. i have so much to write about but i dont know how to word it. and i dont really know if i like the music that we have been making. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:24443 2005-12-22T21:45:21Z 2005-12-22T21:45:21Z the other day we demoed for the upcoming release. im really excited, this is gonna be amazing. <br /><br />im sick of playing games. i feel like all i do is make the wrong decisions. im happy. but im empty. i got some cool shirts from full bleed. yes, they are cool. <br /><br />some of my christmas presents arent gonna be here till next week. lame. <br /><br />thats whats going on, i will fill you in on it later. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:24103 2005-11-24T17:19:26Z 2005-11-24T17:19:26Z happy thanksgiving<br />r&b coming sooner by the minute<br />i love sarah kiser.<br />the end urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:23988 2005-11-09T03:23:32Z 2005-11-09T03:23:32Z as alot of you can see, i deleted all my old entries from before i moved here, i realized that i was never alive before i moved here. it wasnt a waste, but it made me realize who i do not want to be when im older. it make me realize that there is life, there is love, and there is hope. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:23642 2005-11-09T02:37:09Z 2005-11-09T02:37:09Z life is amazing, i have the most amazing girlfriend in the world, i love her. the band is going along amazingly. we plan to start shows in january, same with our sampler.<br /><br /><br />sarah, cody, october 26th, mmhmm. love. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:23439 2005-11-01T13:31:27Z 2005-11-01T13:31:27Z so last night was amazing. not just the fact that i was with her. but the fact that when i looked into her eyes, i knew that we would be together. it almost felt like it was the first time i had ever looked into her eyes. it was amazing. happy birthday. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:23162 2005-10-26T21:15:03Z 2005-10-26T21:15:03Z in love. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:22996 2005-10-23T04:09:48Z 2005-10-23T04:09:48Z only if i knew how to describe what it feels like to be falling in love. then this would be the most beautiful journal entry ever. unfortunatly i cant. but what i can do is tell you that sarah is gods most amazing creation. and i can not believe that i am lucky enough to have her all to my self. <br /><br />thank you god. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:22677 2005-10-21T02:21:29Z 2005-10-21T02:21:29Z alot of things have been making me upset and i have no idea what so ever. i really dont know what it is that makes me mad, but just the most random, small things can almost ruin my day. maybe its the fact that i know i might never add up to anything. the fact that i can never hold onto a girlfriend. the fact that when i have a girlfriend i treat her like crap. i dont know. so much just tells me that its too late and that ive messed up to much. the whole point of this move was so that i could start over and try and make something of myself. its so hard. baseball, something that i will never be able to play again for the rest of my life becuase i took too much time off. college, something that is going to be almost impossible cus last year i didnt care enough to even show up to school half the time. i really hate all of this. im sorry sarah. im sorry maryland. im sorry lowercase. im sorry. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:22283 2005-10-21T01:53:22Z 2005-10-21T01:53:22Z So yeah, someone deffinatly stole my lyrics booklet and it really sucks cus i had alot of songs in there that was going to be using for upcoming musical projects. oh well. all the goodones i think i can rememeber by heart so i am just gonna put them in here. you can read them if you want. and tell me what you think =)<br /><br />I've lied alot, I'll tell you. <br />And I miss you more then you will ever know. <br />I cant stomach the way i felt that night, <br />when i knew we had died. <br />and that i killed everything.<br />i cant feel my face again.<br />my broken dreams, dead in my hands.<br />my sluggish heart, just way to slow.<br />I'll be missing you home. <br />You'll breathe my friend<br />You'll breathe my friend<br />I will give you my word on that.<br />You'll break, you'll bend.<br />you'll live once again. <br />get me out of this place, im dead.<br /><br />yeah that song is about me moving and what not. its for my 2 best friends that dont really like me anymore. they are named hank and aj. many more song lyrics will be up in here. so dont you worry. =)<br /><br />ps. sarah kiser is the most beautiful girl i have ever seen in my life. police or not. I love you sarah. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:22136 2005-09-28T22:12:25Z 2005-09-28T22:12:25Z I LIKE SARAH &lt;3 <br /><br /><br />SOOO MUCH urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:21826 2005-09-08T20:34:41Z 2005-09-08T20:34:41Z Explosions in the Sky (best band ever, almost) so ive never been this frustrated.<br />this girl is making me crazy.<br />but i like her way to much to move on.<br />omgoodness. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eracethecanvas:21618 2005-08-26T03:27:39Z 2005-08-26T03:27:39Z hey everyone, i have not updated this in a very long time, and during that time alot has happened. for one, i have moved to florida, i started school down here and it is all amazing, im making new friends and im really happy. I had to leave alot of friends behind, friends that i will never forget, and friends that can never be replaced. i left my band behind during one of the most important times that they needed me. im truely sorry to everyone who was looking forward to our new CD, im just as upset as you are, but life will go on without the story of november 5th 1955, and who knows, maybe one day we will go back and finish the story. but all of this brings me to my next announcement. I have been writting new music for the past couple months, none of which has been shown to anyone, but i really want to let it be heard, so me and my friend rob have decided to start a project, we will be writting music together and getting ready to record an ep in the next few months. i am very excited about the new band and i hope everyone will join us on the journey. i will keep you all posted. thank you &lt;3 cody.